God is bigger than Google

Google is big.

If you displayed all of Google”s indexed sites on one monitor, the screen would have to be 6 million miles from corner to corner-about 241 times the size of the equator. http://www.netchunks.com/how-big-is-google/)

Facebook is big.

More than 400 million accounts and growing.

Cancer is big.

The probability of developing cancer in your lifetime in the United States is 44% for men and 38% for women.  Women are generally diagnosed with cancer at younger ages than men.(http://www.cancer.org/AboutUs/DrLensBlog/post/2010/07/07/The-2010-Statistics-Are-Out-And-767000-People-Have-Celebrated-More-Birthdays.aspx)

Loving someone who has cancer means they are never out of your mind or your heart. If you visit NanaHood often you know that my cousin, Martha, is fighting breast cancer.

Today I am so frustrated with the inability of the medical personnel who are working on her case that I could scream.

This is Martha’s explanation of what happened…

They finally got the report from the pet scan today, and the radiologist didn’t compare it to the prior scan as he was asked to do. The Dr. was frustrated, and called the radiologist and asked him to get it asap. He said he would get it in the next day or two… the nurse said she called the patient advocate  to get her on this. Evidently they can make things happen when things are bogged down… anyway, we will wait a few more days… RATS! I told her that I was anxious because it’s been 1 1/2 months since I had treatment last and she said she knew and that the Dr. is aware of it too. Now let’s pray that the radiologist gets this done quickly…

If this were the first time something was done incorrectly, I could understand it. I wouldn’t like it, but I could understand. But it’s one of several blunders that have caused delay after delay in getting a treatment plan for Martha started.

I am beyond frustration…

I want to go out in my back yard and scream at the top of my lungs, “I HATE CANCER!” I want to get in my car and drive to Texas and find the radiologist who messed up and shake him/her until their teeth rattle. (don’t worry, I won’t do it) I want to hug Martha until my arms hurt and she makes me let her go.

I know in my heart that I feel this way because there is NOTHING I can do and I don’t do “nothing” well.

When I was a little girl I was scared of everything. I would lie in bed at night and imagine all sorts of monsters and goblins lying in wait to get me.  Then I grew up and found something bigger than my fears. Something more powerful than Superman, Batman or Wonder Woman.

God is bigger than Google, Facebook, and yes, He is bigger than Martha’s cancer.

I am a mere mortal with no super powers (other than the ability to do ten loads of laundry in one day) but God’s power knows no limits.  A God that created the universe can take care of Martha and he doesn’t need my help.

Psalms 56: 3 “But when I am afraid, I put my trust in you.”

Thank you Lord for allowing me to pray, to request that you keep Martha in your care. Please help the doctors and medical staff to do the best of their ability and help me to remember what I have known all along, that there is no problem too big for you. Amen

After I wrote this post I went to my friend Laura’s blog, www.heavenlyhomemaker.com Her post today had a song from YouTube on it and as I listened to it I realized that I needed to share it with you. Not only does it fit how I’m feeling today, I’m pretty sure some of you have felt the same way at one time or another. Listen to it and let me know if it touches your heart.