Why Did My Mom Get Cancer Again?

This is a guest post written by Brittany, about her mom, Martha. Martha and I are first cousins/soul sisters, best friends. I consider her girls my nieces and they call me Aunt Teresa.

“It all began in October, when Mom first found out she had stage four breast cancer. I was really struggling with the question that came to my mind, “Why does my mom have to go through this? Why has she had to endure this pain and suffering for a third time?”  I  wanted answers  and was unsure if I would ever get them. Because I am a Christian I know that God is in control and He has promised that He will take care of us.

I had heard a new song on the radio that I was clinging to and would sing in my head. The first line said, “I am not skilled to understand what God has willed, what God has planned I only know at His right hand stands one who is my Savior.” This sentence summed up what I believed with all my heart.  I knew that God loved my Mom. I knew that she was faithful to Him and I had to trust that God knew what He was doing and His hand was in this situation. This was the only peace I was able to gain at that time. Letting go of the anxiety and fear I felt when I thought of the situation was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I had to humble myself, realizing that I have a human mind that could not wrap around the idea of what God had planned for this situation.

Yesterday I was at school when I heard the news that Mom’s tumors were shrinking. On the way home the song I had clung to throughout this process come on the radio. It was my “I told you so” from God. He revealed to me all the wonderful things that had come of this situation. People who did not know Christ watched Mom as she gave all the glory and trust to Him in her sickness, our family drew closer and our love grew deeper for those around us. My faith, as well as others’ faiths grew stronger as we learned to trust God and to not lean on our own understanding. And every moment spent with family and friends has been truly cherished and not taken for granted.

I pray to God as Mom continues this journey that He blesses her with healing, peace and comfort as I know He will. Our God is a great God. Never let us underestimate His omnipotence, understanding and love for us.

Here are the lyrics to the song Brittany mentioned and below them is a picture of Martha and her girls (except Kiera, who couldn’t be with us).

Aaron Shust – My Savior My God
From the album Anything Worth Saying

I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed, what God has planned
I only know at His right hand
Stands one who is my Savior

I take Him at His word and deed
Christ died to save me; this I read
And in my heart I find a need
Of Him to be my savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

Chorus (2x?s)
My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior?s always there for me
My God: He was, my God; He is
My God is always gonna be

Yes, living, dying, let me bring
My strength, my solace from this spring;
That He who lives to be my King
Once died to be my Savior

That He would leave His place on high
And come for sinful man to die
You count it strange, so once did I
Before I knew my Savior

Chorus (2x?s)

(Instrumental)

Chorus: (2x?s)

My Savior loves, My Savior lives
My Savior loves, My Savior lives