Why I Can’t Blog About Breast Cancer This October
Every October for the last several years I have devoted the whole month to blogging about cancer. The first few years I wrote about breast cancer and then last year I included other types as well. This year I can’t make myself do it. I. Just. Can’t.
In fact, I’m struggling to make myself write about anything. There are times when our hearts hurt so much that it feels like the thoughts and emotions swirling through our heads just won’t come out.This is one of those times.
If you follow this blog or know me personally you know why I am struggling. For those of you who don’t just read this article and you will get the background story.
This week Martha has taken a turn for the worse. It seems her suffering is about over. Her girls and her mother and husband are with her while the rest of us sit at home and wait for the phone call we don’t want to get. I don’t want her to stay on earth because she is so sick, but oh how my heart is breaking. It’s hard not to be selfish when you love someone so much. I just can’t imagine a world without Martha in it.
So forgive me dear NanaHood friends if I don’t post for awhile. I’ll be back, but first I have to figure out how to say goodbye to my best friend.