Why I Can’t Blog About Breast Cancer This October

Every October for the last several years I have devoted the whole month to blogging about cancer. The first few years I wrote about breast cancer and then last year I included other types as well. This year I can’t make myself do it. I. Just. Can’t.

In fact, I’m struggling to make myself write about anything. There are times when our hearts hurt so much that it feels like the thoughts and emotions swirling through our heads just won’t come out.This is one of those times.

If you follow this blog or know me personally you know why I am struggling. For those of you who don’t just read this article and you will get the background story.

Finding Happy When You Are Feeling Sad

Our twins helping Martha to the beach

This week Martha has taken a turn for the worse. It seems her suffering is about over. Her girls and her mother and husband are with her while the rest of us sit at home and wait for the phone call we don’t want to get. I don’t want her to stay on earth because she is so sick, but oh how my heart is breaking. It’s hard not to be selfish when you love someone so much. I just can’t imagine a world without Martha in it.

me and martha 2

So forgive me dear NanaHood friends if I don’t post for awhile. I’ll be back, but first I have to figure out how to say goodbye to my best friend.

 

Comments

  1. Joan Stommen 21 Oct, 2015

    My heart hurts for you Teresa. As soon as I saw your photo yesterday, I’ve been worried and praying for you. May God comfort you and Martha’s family right now. I do want to say how much I’ve admired the energy and devotion you’ve given this sweet woman…..your visits to her; welcoming her whole family to your home…..lots of fun outings and girl time together! You are the kindest, most loving person…..and a wonderful Nana! Take care of yourself and know I’m thinking of you and understand your sad pain. Hugs

  2. claudoo 21 Oct, 2015

    Teresa, I’m so sorry for you and for Martha and for your whole family. I send love and strength to you. My heart breaks, cancer is so difficult to watch as it is such a long, difficult illness. Thinking of you and sending love. xo

  3. Heavy sighs… and a heavy heart. I am so sorry you and your cousin are going through this. Sending lots of hugs and love … xo

  4. Indah Nuria Savitri 21 Oct, 2015

    Huge hugs for you Nanaaa.. And also for Martha. Cancer really changes people’s live.. Stay strong!

  5. Cindy 21 Oct, 2015

    Even though I just met you, my heart hurts for you. I lost my best friend twelve years ago. Not from cancer, but I watched her slip away little by little, too. Hugs! And try to count the blessings and remember the good times. It will help you, through.

  6. Jeanne 21 Oct, 2015

    My heart hurts for you. Saying prayers and sending hugs your way. Take care of yourself and take the time you need. ?

  7. Angela Brooks Brown 21 Oct, 2015

    Well, this is such a hard time. It’s hard for our church family, but that does not compare to Glen or the girls, or any of y’all. Tonight I sat by Suzie and Ed and it was so sad….I want to do something, but I know there is nothing to do.
    Martha was such an inspiration to me. She still is and will always be. She has taught me how to trust in God, more than I ever did before. She is THE Proverbs 31 woman to me, but more than that she is the mentor that is spoken of in Titus 2!
    She has helped me raise my daughter Hannah to be a GODLY WOMAN, and for that I will be eternally greatful.
    Teresa, I am praying for you and all the family, and I am praying for my Hannah too. She is still having a hard time with Jennifer’s death. She was our youth minister’s wife who also died from cancer a few years ago. Both Jen and Martha were the great women in her life. Teaching her where I left off.
    We love y’all, and will see you soon.

    Angela Brown

  8. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thanks for your sweet message Angela and for loving Martha.

  9. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thank you Jeanne!

  10. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thanks, Cindy. I appreciate your kindness so much! Bless you.

  11. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thank you Indah and you stay strong too!

  12. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thank you Patty. I appreciate that!

  13. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thank you so much. It is a devil of a disease.

  14. NanaHood 22 Oct, 2015

    Thank you sweet Joan! I’m so glad we met. You have been and are a blessing to me!

  15. Christine Crosby 23 Oct, 2015

    Dearest Teresa, we should all be so fortunate as to have a best friend like you. Martha was truly blessed to have you in her life. Having lost my younger sister to breast cancer at age 58 and my best friend last year, I understand the huge sadness you are experiencing. Please know many people are thinking of you and sending their love to help you through this very hard time.

  16. NanaHood 26 Oct, 2015

    Thank you Christine!